My spouse had a lengthy affair several years ago that brought much hardship to our family. He repented and I forgave but I still after all this time have difficulty trusting. The other woman, although mostly removed is still near enough to cause hardship intentional and unintentional. Although I would like to believe I have forgiven her too, I still am easily engaged in negativity towards her when I think how she almost destroyed my family. Protecting our children is my main goal. I don't wish any harm to come to her but wish that a great opportunity could lead her farther away and more out of our lives and that of my spouses. I just want so desperately to feel trust and safe in our relationship. I long for it and most nights cry myself to sleep. My spouse tries, but does not do a very good job and placing a hedge around our marriage. Pray for me and my family and the other woman that we all could move on to a better place since this tragedy that occurred in our lives.