I don't really know where to start or how it all went wrong, but even though I have a relationship w/ God and have been saved, baptized, am living the Christian lifestyle as far as waiting for marriage..not drinking, smoking (had two drinks the other night, but for the most part, I do not drink, it use to make me do dumb things).
I am a single mom who is very broken. I've had my heart broken by everyone I've loved, I've never felt good enough, my kids have no respect for me. I bend over backwards for them and have always, but I've tried recenlty to get them to start doing chores and help them to become adults some day..help them w/ respect and skills they will need in life. When they were younger, I was very very loving...snuggly..and ended up letting them walk all over me. My mom raised me that way, exept I don't remember her being loving..I have major mom issues from never feeling loved. We've had a real bad relationship since I was like 11. I've prayed, I've changed in a lot of ways to try and get along w/ her. I believe I'm dealing w/ GENERATIONAL CURSES or curse. My kids also drifted away from God.:( Two don't believe
I feel diconnected. I feel God wants me to work w/ children, and I have for many years. I just started a new job I actually prayed to get, yet I even feel disconnected about working w/ the kids..I don't know if it's depression or loss of Joy, but I need help. I know it's the Devil trying to stop me from God's plan in my life. Please help! God Bless