I am asking for prayers....specifically for my fiance, Michael, to open his heart again for me and allow God to tear down the walls and blocks, the cloudiness and the doubt that he has built over the past several months. I have made mistakes, I have regrets, I slipped into a dark pit of depression. I hurt him and took him for granted, though it was never my intention. Now, suddenly...I find myself alone, he has left. Even considering pursuing another woman. This is the biggest heart pain and chest ache I have ever experienced, and I have been through a lot in my life. Michael says that God has not convicted his heart yet..he is waiting. We met three years ago, after our divorces...he has three children, I have three children and we have become a beautiful, loving blended family. His love was once deep and real and true. He IS the love of my life. He is my sweetheart. I helped bring him to accept Jesus as his Lord and Savior back in February of 2012. We have been through tough times, yes, but I want and desire nothing more than to be his faithful and devoted wife, under God, with Jesus at our center, for the rest of my life. I am absolutely heartbroken and filled with fear and dread...I am fighting that and standing up and facing it with God's Truth and His word. I believe nothing is lost in Christ. Please pray God will restore and redeem and renew our engagement and bring him back to me through faith, forgiveness and LOVE.