Please lift up my marriage. It has been decades of conflict. We are not spiritually on the same page as I left the church we were married in when I studied the book of John and saw "I was blind, but now I see". I have done so much to destroy our marriage verbally because of our differences and I know I am responsible for that. However, it is 2 people in a marriage and the enemy is really stirring things up. It is a constant battle verbally which then makes it emotionally and mentally hard . I have done counseling intensively. We went to a few couple ones and my husband did 2 individual. I believe he is a wounded man like all of us. There is baggage buried deep. He is a self-made man who believes in God, but I don't believe he has relinquished control to the Lord even though I believe he is a Christian. We all have idols and we are no exception. Please pray my husband is willing to go forward with intensive marriage counseling that was recommended, but is extremely expensive. I have no where else to turn, but to cry out to the Lord. I will TRUST in the Lord. Prayers for discernment, patience, perseverance, and strength. His denomination does not believe in divorce, but the stress I am experiencing is really taking a toll. I know divorce is not the answer and only creates more problems. I need hope to hang on.